An Introduction of Sorts

Thought that I would like to introduce myself.

No matter how much I wouldn't like to admit it. I'm a shy girl who appears aloof half the time in public. I might appear mean or withdrawn to a lot of people. If you took the time to meet me, you might just find a good friend. Well at least that's what I'm hoping. Everyone has dreams really.

My main interests are art, video games, and writing. That might be what I talk about most in these blogs.

I go to college right now for Game and Simulation and hope to make some good video games and earn enough money to the point where I'm no longer concerned about being poor. Most people say that money doesn't matter but I guess I'm just greedy and materialistic. My room is full of a bunch of "junk". Mostly books and anime stuff. There's not that much room but as long as I can get around stuff, sleep, and breath, then I'm happy.

My art and my writing go together. Horror and Fantasy combined are my favorite topics. I guess that's what people call Dark Fantasy. The fantasy of today is some what sicking to my tastes. What happened to the darkness that came with most fairy tales these days? They taught people lessons. What lessons can be obtained from Disney movies? Prince Charmings are nearly extinct.

My main concerns in life is my social activities. I'm shy and constantly anxious. I feel inapt in some conversations and wonder why some people bother talking to me. Low self-esteem is a word that comes to mind here. I have lots of friends and even a boy friend yet these things come to my mind constantly. Yes they treat me right and accept even the weirdest things that I tend to do from time to time.

I also accept them and help them with anything they are willing to share with me. I'm not a therapist but I'll try. Putting people down for whatever problem they have is not something that I've been raised to do. Neither do I want to hang around people who put down others down because they are "different". I'd rather be around "different" people all day. I feel that the world goes into a whole new perspective rather than the same old stale perspective I've been seeing since my childhood days.

In other words, I normally feel like I don't fit in. To help me out, I'm reading a book by Matthew McKay, and Patrick Fanning called Self-Esteem Third Edition. Why not? I feel that this book can help me out somehow. Unfortunately I am also a procrastinator. I am also a fast reader. But knowing that I can finish a book in about or less than a week can make me put a book down for some time. Two, Three, months...it can happen.

I've had this book for two years now and I am just now READING it! I'll let you people know what I think in the future. My goal is to publish a blog at least four times a week so wish me luck!