Sunday, December 28, 2008

Comming to America (Fire Emblem Path of Radience)

You ever remember looking up information for Super Smash Bros Melee and seeing two characters named Marth and Roy and saying "who the hell are these people?". You stare at their information on Wikipedia and still can't remember where you have seen them from. Then you go to the trophy section in Melee when you finally get the game, look up their information, and are still like "who?". Everything makes since when you finally look at the game information and see a "Japan Only" right next to something called "Fire Emblem".

Well in Fire Emblem: Path of Radiance, you finally get your hands on the NINTH Fire Emblem game (most likely after cussing out the random guy in Japan who decided to be so stingy with the series until this one). This game came on to the Gamecube in 2005, using the popularity of Marth and Roy to their advantage, some guy in Japan thought it was about time that America gets it try at a Fire Emblem game without having to download it on the internet or through connections (some spiteful guy at an anime convention somewhere).

Before anyone says anything, Fire Emblem is a tatical rpg. Meaning a game of chest but an interesting game of chest. You get a number of people, a field to fight on, and some eniemies to beat down. Of course like any game of chest, your knights and horses and whatever (I don't play chest) are not as important as long as they are protecting the queen or king in this matter. If the king dies then the game is over but if one of your knights die then the game continues.

But do not go throwing whoever into battle for the hell of it! If one of your people die then they are gone for good! They might also disappear from your story too or either talk in the story and not show up on the field at all. You will need some characters in order to recruit more people to your side too. Fire Emblem makes thinking in rpg's important! There are all types of characters to put on the field and each one has an advantage and a disadvantage against other. For example swords will beat axes but axes will beat lances. People with bows and arrows can not attack up front but they can attack from a far. So please think of the archers! They have feelings too you know.

The story tries to break away from Fire Emblem tradition with a none lord character as the leader but they failed to get rid of the blue haired cliche so I am not sure what they were trying to accomplish. The main character Ike belongs to a group of mercenaries who are hired to take care of various bandits and problems through out the land. Ike is the typical humble hero who will help anyone good in hand. His yawn fest of a life changes when he finds a physically weak princess in the woods one day. She hires him and his group to help her out to bring her kingdom (well Queendom but people are never that accurate are they?) back to order.

You will get to travel a few lands and meet interesting people such as the laguz, a race of animals who are furries one moment and beasts that can kill the next moment. Treat them like archers in their human like forms who can not attack until they turn into beasts. They have feelings too...

Although the story gets better later on, there are a few plot holes left for an obvious sequel and some things just bug me (Dragon laguzes are considered rare and impossible to find until toward the end where they are just about everywhere. Yeah...).

Anyone who loves tactical planning may enjoy this game. For the people who just want to get in and beat the crap out of people instead of waiting their turn may really hate this game. It never hurts to try though!

Monday, December 22, 2008

Musical Apple (The I-Pod Touch)

Music can be the best thing in the world. Music can allow you to relax when work has gotten to you, to annoy the person right next you by blasting loud music (that they clearly don't like) into their ears, and just something to enjoy when you're bored. In order to enjoy these many joys, there has been radios, cd's, and mp3 players. Among all these devices, my favorite has been the Apple's i-pod touch.

A three gig and thin black device that has a lot of stuff for its size. The internet, notes, a store, email, and even stock information! I take this thing around with me everywhere. It's like my special little toy. I can even throw my wacth out the window because there is a time and a caleendar on this thing! What else can the I-Pod touch not do? Well...It can not solve whatever problem you may have with somebody else. But who cares about them?

What I do not like about this device is that like any laptop or anything with internet access, you must get the password for the network. It can get annoying at times trying to resize the screen. Some people's hands are big and may become frustrated with having to delicately touch the screen. Unfortunately there is no such thing as a stylus for the I-pod touch.

This little thing is only three gig so if you aren't using it for a planner or for internet access, you may become mad with its small size. Either way, its a great device for everybody!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Wii All Have Fun



Nintendo loves bringging people together. Freinds, family, lovers, and even enemies can sit down and have fun together. I believe that is why they brought out something like the Super Smash Bros series. Becuase what doesn't attract Ninetendo lovers like getting the chance to beat the crap out of other Nintendo characters?

Brawl...the third game in the series brings a lot for everyone to do. Social butterflies can have fun beating the crap out of their buddies and loners (or social outcasts) can have fun on single player mode. There are extras added to the game to make free for all more hectic. The new additions, the smash balls, are proof of how hectic a battle can get once some one sees one on the field. Call them finshing moves (depending on the character who gets the ball), cheating, and your savior on the field, the smash ball gives each character a special move that causes a lot of damage, or instant death to the many unlucky people on the field. Some can even help other characters so be careful how you use them!

The stages come in a variety of lands and Ninetdo backgrounds. Fire Emblem characters finally get their own place and Nintendo are nice enough to give non Nintendo characters like Snake and Sonic their own place as well. Everyone will have fun moving their eyes all across the screen to doge their opponent and the stages many changing phases as if each stage has emotional problems (tip: beware of any animal on ANY stage).

There is customazible content. No...nobody can make their own character outfits or anything like that. People can make their own stages! Although lacking, plenty out there can have fun designing their unfair stage of bombs and spikes golore for people to play in! Hate the peaceful and unfiting music of Smashville...well not a problem! You can go to the music editer and tune down the possiblity of any slow song showing up so no one falls asleep during a macth.

Guess what loners! This game has a storyline now! Thanks to the people at Sqaure Enix, loners can have fun going through an actual storyline of a game thought not to have a storyline other than some guy playing with dolls. I won't spoil anything but if no one wants to waste their time trying to get the hidden characters like they did in Melee, then they can get the characters through the storyline! YAY! That makes people who got Mewtwo the hard way, much happier. Also this story mode is two player so don't forget to invite the few friends you might have to play with you. Just hope that they don't suck.

But loners aren't stuck to just the story mode and the usual Classic mode that a lot of people are probably tired of by now. There's online play! So as long as you have someone on your friend list, you have someone to play with! YAY! There's something for everybody! Unless you're one of the unlucky people who don't have friends or know of anybody else with a Nintendo Wii.

The only problem is for people who are still whining about wave dashing and the changes made to specific characters. Yes, this game requires people to drag their lazy butts across the screen slower than they would have in Melee. Don't know what wave dashing is? Then don't worry about it (it might make you sad)! These people may also follow the "no items, Fox only, Final Destination" quote and make it a reality (or at least the no items and Final Destination part). Just do not play that way too much or else the game will become pretty dull. This game was designed for the kiddies despite its rated T for teens rating. Either way, there is still enough competition for everybody.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Do You Have a Soul? (IMA International Marketing Association)

That's right folks. Having a soul means having more than just being a live and being on Earth (or the moon and maybe Mars someday). Having a soul means having the ability to tell the truth, be honest, and treat people right.

Having a job means that you will get money. With money, you can buy whatever you want and support yourself. Money is obtained through a ton of ways: Burger King, Wal-Mart, and big CEO positions. As important as it is to not become a person who's eating off the street to survive, it is also important to keep your soul. With money and a soul, a person could actually become wealthy and not end up like Donald Trump or the owner of the Playboy mansion. Whatever that person did to get far, they can honestly look back on their life in a few years and be happy about themselves.

Now dishonesty and bad jobs like prostitution, stripping, drug dealing, and telemarketing are everywhere. Even worse, they are easy to get!

Anyone who's desperate for a job may find themselves in a company like IMA. That's International Marketing Association and NRS. And NRS stands for Nationwide Reader's Services. This company promises a lot of money and a proffessional environment. They make the soon to be hired pumped up with promises of free gifts and extra pay with each sale they make. All they have to do is repeat the same old lines over and over again on a piece of paper and they've won the customer. Sounds nice and easy huh?

WRONG!!!!

When you get into the job after being won over by a few managers then you see how wrong you totally are. Ahh...selling magazines. There's something that everybody needs to buy. You're told to read a paper that promises three magazines for the price of one, a diamond watch, and a bunch of other prizes that could be brought at a Wal-mart or some other store. If someone wanted a particular magazine then they would have gone to the website and subscribed themselves.

Calling others can be a good or bad thing depending on the day. Even though this job may teach you to have a thicker skin due to the countless rejection by customers, you may start developing anger issues due to the countless rejection by customers. If you don't make enough sells in a day then you are let go. Sometimes for the night but sometimes permanently. It's a highly competitive job and you really have to know how to sweat talk someone into buying magazines in order to climb higher in to the business.

Which brings everyone back to having a soul. Do you have the heart to lie to someone constantly? "There is no obligation to buy a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g in the sweepstakes" is a lie when a customer asks you if they have to buy anything in order to participate in the so called "Dream of a Lifetime Sweepstakes". I'm pretty sure buying one magazine for sixty months means that I'm paying for something. The only way to get ahead easily is to be lucky by calling an idiot which doesn't happen much by the way.

Professional? Not really. You can bring cell phones, wear you're usual clothes, and talk into people's ears when they are trying to talk to other customers. Just as long as none of these actions are done in front of the big boss. Sad huh?

There's other things wrong with this company but if one wants a deeper look into it then please look at these links:

http://www.ripoffreport.com/reports/0/258/RipOff0258342.htm

http://www.ripoffreport.com/reports/0/272/RipOff0272090.htm

http://www.ripoffreport.com/reports/0/120/RipOff0120027.htm

At least Burger King is an honest job.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Transforming into Real Women (Rock of Love Charm School)


Not a charming sight to behold. The same could be said for last year's Flavor of Love Charm School. The equally slutty, immature, or believably hopeless bunch of reality "women" get their turn in a charm school in hopes that they can change for the better. Of course...also to see how long they might last in a house before they kill each other or become lesbians due to the lack of men in sight (Such a thought could have been possible if Dallas stayed longer in the house with Lacey. I swear Lacey has a crush on her).

The brave soul in charge of changing these believed to be females is Sharron Osborn: a popular wife of the rock n' roll star Ozzy Osbourne. This brave soul leads the "women" with challenges that are set to a certain commandment each and every day. If one does really well then they are safe from being expelled and if one fails the challenge then they face a bigger chance of going home. For example, the commandment "Thou Shalt Rock Onto Others" is the challenge to be able to express one's feelings fully onto another. Jessica, who really wanted to be liked, failed the challenge by holding back and was thus sent home. Thou shalt listen to Sharron's will!

It shouldn't be surprising if anybody has been watching these creatures in their natural habitats on whatever reality shows they've been on, then they know that Lacey is often the predator that loves picking people off one by one. The drama often explodes constantly with this one and it can get frustrating watching this demon climb up and up into the final two (predictable) while people who deserved charm school are kicked out. Hopefully maybe a miracle will come in after Heather is kicked off (predictable) next week. Why am I guessing the outcomes! BECAUSE THE PREVIEWS GIVE AWAY TOO MUCH!!!! That's a huge problem with this show. I understand trying to grab attention and all but the previews give too much away!

Too bad it's too late to tone it down. The show is almost done with two or one more episode to go. This is a nice way to speed up time and a good show to watch for reality show junkies who want to escape drama in their lives by watching other people's drama. I just hope the person who wins, actually deserves the prize!

Monday, November 24, 2008

Changing Through a Camera (Social Anxiety blogs)

It's nice to introduce people. Some people are shy and need some warming up to people in order to get out there. Some people are social butterflies and need no introductions at all as talking comes easier to them. To the shy ones, they might be like cocoons that need a little help to open.

Some people are stuck in their cocoons and need constant pushing. It can be hard sometimes and it can be easy depending on where the caterpillar decided to start it's process into a butterfly. Some of these cocoons are...



http://uk.youtube.com/user/JaneyfromKorea
http://uk.youtube.com/user/TwilightAngelftw
http://uk.youtube.com/user/spiffyrich
http://uk.youtube.com/user/TimeShifterX

Social Anxiety blogs. The best way to describe these blogs are people ready to put themselves out there and involve into the desired social person that they have dreamed of. They set up their progress, downfalls, goals all for the whole wide world to see. Of course there are others who dream of passing their current states too. They deserve some attention too.

Like most blogs, the first one may not be special. A nerve racking introduction in front of a camera. They have something to share with their viewers but don't know if anyone cares to watch or comment. The truth is...when someone makes a blog, they set up an audience to talk to. So of course there will be people who care and don't care to watch but who cares about the non watchers? The watchers and commenters are people who can help these people break out of their shells with tips, empathy, and...even some negativity.

Some of these butterflies are nearly out of their cocoons while others are still trying to break through.

http://uk.youtube.com/user/joyfulseraph
http://uk.youtube.com/user/s3r0lf

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Wonderfully Evil (Code Geas)

Some shows follow the typical storyline of some good guy trying to change the world. In the end they find out some lesson and change the world for the better. Yay....and... yawn...

Well...That is often an overused plot that I can't seem to stomach all the time. One doesn't even have to look more than five minutes to find a story like that in the Anime or Fantasy section. That's why when I saw Code Geass I was happy.

Code Geass started out slow with a plot that could make anyone roll their eyes or yawn out of boredom. From the very start, I thought that I was in for another nobles=corrupt people and the oppressed=good. Well I was wrong. The main character Lelouch and the anime seem way more than meets the eye.

Code Geass is a tale of betrayal, lies, and Gundam like mechs, and a complete love of Pizza Hut!

The Rulers of Brintania have won the war with the Elevens (formally known as the Japanese) and forced to live under their control. What separates this anime from millions of rebellion type anime is the power of Geass. Geass is a power, once given to someone, can give them one specific power as long as someone looks into their eyes. Yes...Geass has limits! Lelouch's power is to be able to make anyone do as he pleases. Suicide, murder, writing on the wall, telling the truth...anything.

Anyone who sees this show, might start thinking of Death Note. Lelouch tests his power just like Light tests his Death Note. The two protagonists share some similarities as one person might think of the main character as good while another person may think the complete opposite. So far I haven't seen any pro Lelouch (or "Zero") or Suzaku shirts yet. Lelouch has the option of using his power to either save the Elevens or do as he pleases. Oh believe me, he does both! And that's what I love about this show!

As you get further into the series, you see that other characters have their own motives for what they do and the story has so many twists and turns that you may not know where the show is going.

If you like Death Note crossed with Gundam, drama moving a plot line, and Pizza Hut putting their logo all over the place, then you'll like this show.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Grass is Greener on the Other Side (Trading Spouses)

There is no way in hell that I would try to trade my future spouse for another spouse. My grass is already as green as it can get. However, some people think differently and may just want to experience what it's like to have another spouse out of curiousity.

That's when Trading Spouses comes in. A show detecticaded to ending the curiousity of others by actually putting them with another spouse and family. From what I've seen so far, the exact opposite of the type of family someone is used to. For example: the Christain wife who got traded with a Hippie wife and a Vegan wife getting traded with a meat eating family. Sounds like a nightmare to me right?

Well it can be a nightmare to anybody if the wives didn't get a good amount of money in the end. That's right. Stay with a family that's the exact opposite of your origional family and get paid for it! The nightmare of it all is what the spouses make of it. The Christain wife learned that there are good in even the worst of situations and to calm down to a reasonable level when her views might be challenged.

As usual with most reality shows, I think the drama that can happen is all a part of the entertainment. But since no one is trying hard to win a date or kick someone off the show and not saying "I'm not here to make friends", I find the whole show refreshing.

It's quite sad that I didn't wacth this show when it started. Maybe I would have had something to wacth when there was nothing on.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

You're Own Personal Movie Place (Youtube)

Youtube is the place to be for internet junkies like me. Self-help blogs, video game playing, anything. My boredom instantly dies when watching this website.

Charlesissocoollike, Teens-wit, Protojonusa, and Jaceyfromkorea: the videos I can find from thousands of people are endless. That's what I like about the website! If anyone hasn't heard of Youtube then they must have been dead before 2005.

That's how popular this website is. If one wants to reach some kind of fame or audience then they can find that here. Youtube is open to all kinds of people and countries around the world.

What I don't like about this website might not matter in a few months. The owners of Youtube are deciding to expand the time of videos that people create. That way Youtube users won't have to adopt editing to shorten a video or split it a part if they want others to be able to see it. The current bug that they are having with the subscriptions might just get fixed soon thanks to Simpfilms and other people's comments. Videos can be watched in higher quality now so videos in horrible quality are no longer a problem.

Youtube is a place that's shaping up enough for everyone to enjoy it!

Friday, October 17, 2008

It Takes Time (Textbookwheel.com)

It's nice signing up to a website, getting a free shipping code, and advertising the website everywhere. Some times you might think there's no point. I mean one dollar and ninety five cents isn't enough to wow everyone. For those in college, it's enough to get someone a candy bar.

That's what I thought when I got my first paycheck. I thought "whatever" and simply cashed the check for the fun of it and kept advertising the website. However I thought differently when I got another check saying that I got twenty dollars. That's a major difference! Why not try some more? For my last check so far I got twenty six dollars and thirty three cents! What fun!

Textbookwheel.com is a place where college students can sell their textbooks for money. Just put in the free shipping code 580955 and you can get free shipping just like that. Sign up and put the free shipping code 580955 and you can do the same thing that I'm doing. Letting people sell textbooks and get money.

Just make sure that the item you are trying to get rid of DOES NOT LOOK LIKE CRAP! That's why it's a good idea to take care of your belongings! As long as the there are no stains or missing pages then you can sell it. You can also get rid of comics, manga, and fictional books as well as graphic calculators.

It does take time to get some money so please have some patience!

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Wrist Tiring Fun (Guilty Gear XX Accent Core)

Ah...I come home and sit down after a boring morning full of routines and classwork. My eyes barely open, wishing for a long nap to let the day go by in order to speed up the same zombie routine over and over again. Sleeping can take away a lot from somebody's day, especially if their energy can be spent doing something else.

Video games. A great way to invite people over and beat the crap out of each other while talking about how the day went. Guilty Gear XX Accent Core is a great example of this. Full of rocking roll music, wacky yet cool characters, and different move sets, I find myself having a blast beating the crap out of other people and computers. Even characters who I hate I even find fun in playing as them. What fighting game could ever do that?

There are endless amounts of ways to play as a character. One way or another, someone out there will find a way to play as a character. That's what people call strategy and the cast of Guilty Gear XX Accent Core are full of strategy. Figuring out how you might draw a person in through mind games is a lot more fun then trying to beat the crap out of them. Why not mess with their minds a little? Look like you might do one thing but do the other.

There is a lot of variety in the music. Even if someone hates rock 'n roll, they might find themselves rocking to the creative sounds of some of the character's themes. I don't know how someone can manage to fit both rock n roll and classic music together in A.B.A.'s theme but they sure did.

Anyone into Street Fighter may want to look at this game as Street Fighter isn't the ONLY 2-D game out there. There are a lot of things that I love in this game more than Street Fighter. Each character is origonal. I-No is a rock n' Roll witch who uses her guitar to fight. Bridget is a boy dressed as a nun who uses a yo-yo and a teddy bear full of razors to fight! There are a numerous amount of combos that a person can use depending on how they use a character. Like a person can manage a three hit combo with Ky while another person can manage an eleven hit combo with the same character! Plus the best thing is you can hit people on the ground and not have to wait for them to take their presious time getting up! That's always a bonus for me. Use the over drive moves in an combo and we got a good game here! Get tired of someone and just use an instant death move on them. But have that move fail and your ability to do an over drive move disappears for that round! So be careful.

Of course with all 2-D cames, Guilty Gear can take a toll on one's wrist and fingers. I suggest taking your time with the direction pad before hitting one of the action buttons to perform a special move. At least that's what I'm doing...now. Ouch!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

The Act of Forgiveness (Church)

Everyone has something that they hold against one or another group of people. The grudge can be for a day, a year, or even decades. Over milk, candy, a car crash, or a broken item, practically anything can cause bitter feelings between two or more people. Bigger things such as bullying, rape, and murder can cause the greatest grudges of all depending on the person.

Holding a grudge is an evil. An evil that likes to seep slowly into the soul and blacken it. A darkened soul refuses to think of anything else that might get itself into the light...even for a few seconds. The owner of this soul banishes loved ones, shouts at potential friends, and alienates itself except for that one moment to condemn those that got him or her into the darkened state the whole time.

This soul doesn't realize how dark it has become in the process of seeking revenge. Even when it finally reaches its objectives its left with nothing. The people that soul held a grudge against are enjoying their lives out in the sun and are oblivious to whatever feeling someone else from far away is giving to them.

Sometimes it is best to forgive.

That's what I learned about church today. Church is a place where the Lord can reach you under though times. Today was one of thsoe days. It takes a lot of effort to hate than it does to be happy. Saying sorry is actually a strength that a lot of people consider to be a weakness. I guess the people who believe that love to be in the world of grudges forever. No one is responsible for how someone reacts to being forgvin. It is the person who wants to forgive that is more important in my book. That takes a lot of courage to pull off these days.

Living in a world of malice is just not a healthy thing to do. If I spend time living in the world of malice then I would be casting out friends and loved ones. These days that is something that a lot of people can not live without.

Church is also a place where sins can be forgiven and happiness can be obtained. I don't know why but I feel lifted somehow. It makes me wonder why I put off going to church for a month before I decided to go back again. Hmm...

Just a thought. God loves you.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Trying to Get Some Money (Replays)

I've been out of a job for a while now. Each time I get a job, I normally stay there for three months minimum. It's either that I quit or I get laid off. I've stopped trying to quit my jobs these days. The job that I end up going to often stops having hours all of a sudden and I'm left looking for a new job.

It sucks but I guess that's how the economy is these days. I'm not that into what's going on these days so politics won't be getting that much light in my blogs. I am curious how things will turn out with whoever we elect. It's time for a new future. But during the wait for the new possibilities, I say that I should stay in the moment.

The current moment is trying to find a job or should I say get some money. Right now I'm going to be hitting three stores today to see if I can get hired at any of them. As usual I hope that such a goal is possible. I'm also going for getting money... legally. As I've said before, not having money does not do good to my mood at all.

Without money, I have to borrow from people, owe people back money that I have no current way of giving back, and or have to listen to nagging parents constantly asking why I don't have a job. I know that they are worried about me and all but it's really annoying.

My current way of getting money is trying to sell some of my stuff. I have lots of manga and dvds that are just sitting around in one of my drawers. I normally don't like the idea of selling something that I'm going to miss in the future but none of these dvds or manga get worn out like my other stuff from constant reading and looking at.

Yesterday I went to a store called Replays. It was a nice store, lots of manga and dvds on display. I thought that I could sell a lot of stuff there but I guess not. I managed to sell my Mulan dvd and Uzumaki dvd and got 12 bucks because of that. That's cool I guess. The Mulan dvd got me a high price of 8 dollars. I figure that's the highest a dvd can go for. The Uzumaki dvd went for four dollars.

The manga I had could not be sold because there was too much manga on the shelves. If there is no room for something then Replays will not take more of it. That's understandable. I might have to wait until the Christmas season or just a few weeks before I am able to sell stuff there again. I guess that's why my boyfriend gave me a Replays' card.

I think it's a great idea to be able to sell stuff as long as nobody is cheated in the process. I hear that some people often sell stolen goods at that store so one has to be careful when buying stuff there. I guess that means just selling stuff there for me unless they happen to have a rare game like Final Fantasy VII.

It's a good idea to note that just because something is in the store doesn't mean that it's on sell. So really don't try to go for the Knuckle's doll there. I've already tried and so has my boyfriend. Well unless one can give a good offer of course. I should plan on doing that someday. It wouldn't hurt to try at least. I mean he won't sell it to me if I was going to sell it. I certainly will not. I have had a Sonic doll ever since I was in the first grade and I'm currently in college right now. That's a LONG time. I'll be sure to use that evidence some day.

My boyfriend also told me that there was a Marth figurine that I missed a while ago. I feel really disappointed right now. Maybe I can find one at an anime convention or online somewhere. Maybe they might have that figurine again someday.

Time can only tell what I'll be doing there in the near future.

Friday, October 10, 2008

An Introduction of Sorts

Thought that I would like to introduce myself.

No matter how much I wouldn't like to admit it. I'm a shy girl who appears aloof half the time in public. I might appear mean or withdrawn to a lot of people. If you took the time to meet me, you might just find a good friend. Well at least that's what I'm hoping. Everyone has dreams really.

My main interests are art, video games, and writing. That might be what I talk about most in these blogs.

I go to college right now for Game and Simulation and hope to make some good video games and earn enough money to the point where I'm no longer concerned about being poor. Most people say that money doesn't matter but I guess I'm just greedy and materialistic. My room is full of a bunch of "junk". Mostly books and anime stuff. There's not that much room but as long as I can get around stuff, sleep, and breath, then I'm happy.

My art and my writing go together. Horror and Fantasy combined are my favorite topics. I guess that's what people call Dark Fantasy. The fantasy of today is some what sicking to my tastes. What happened to the darkness that came with most fairy tales these days? They taught people lessons. What lessons can be obtained from Disney movies? Prince Charmings are nearly extinct.

My main concerns in life is my social activities. I'm shy and constantly anxious. I feel inapt in some conversations and wonder why some people bother talking to me. Low self-esteem is a word that comes to mind here. I have lots of friends and even a boy friend yet these things come to my mind constantly. Yes they treat me right and accept even the weirdest things that I tend to do from time to time.

I also accept them and help them with anything they are willing to share with me. I'm not a therapist but I'll try. Putting people down for whatever problem they have is not something that I've been raised to do. Neither do I want to hang around people who put down others down because they are "different". I'd rather be around "different" people all day. I feel that the world goes into a whole new perspective rather than the same old stale perspective I've been seeing since my childhood days.

In other words, I normally feel like I don't fit in. To help me out, I'm reading a book by Matthew McKay, and Patrick Fanning called Self-Esteem Third Edition. Why not? I feel that this book can help me out somehow. Unfortunately I am also a procrastinator. I am also a fast reader. But knowing that I can finish a book in about or less than a week can make me put a book down for some time. Two, Three, months...it can happen.

I've had this book for two years now and I am just now READING it! I'll let you people know what I think in the future. My goal is to publish a blog at least four times a week so wish me luck!